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after going to theatre for my c-section i got there they were all ready to put me to sleep and i pulled out at the last minute i had a panic attack i just coudlnt do it ive come home now will see my doctor on friday and see if he can induce me or let me go naturally this has affected me so bad i had nightmares last night and today stepping out my front door sent me all into a panic i just cant stop crying either well will keep you all posted

Kylie hang on in there young one will be with you soon, one way or another xxhugxx

Kylie, Please dont blame yourself, panic attacks are an illness, you wouldn't blame yourself if you had flu or chickenpox. Its probably partly to do with you being pregnant that you had an attack. Try to relax and let the doctors sort it out. I will thinking of you. June xx

Morning Kylie, was wondering how things were going for you, sorry to hear this, those panic attacks are awful, hope the Doctor sorts things for you on Friday, take good care there, thinking of you :)

Kylie, thats such a shame, but you cant be a failure kiddo, you are nearly a mum. Dont worry too much about pulling out of the op. You needed time to rethink. Your doctor will understand how you are feeling - no need to feel bad about it. I have panic attacks and they are truly dreadful. I dont think anyone who hasnt had them can understand. People seem to think they are amusing. As someone who quite often has one as I drive on 'big' roads when a lorry comes up behind me..................... I have often considered just driving into a ditch to get it over with! God be with you. Have you got any relaxation tapes - you can buy them in quite a lot of shops now, including health food shops. YOU WILL BE FINE.

After having a planned c section and an emergency c section, I can fully appreciate how scared you were. I walked down to theatre for my first, and they did the epidural/spinal block there. I was convinced I would feel pain, so after they did all the normal prodding to check for sensation and saying does that hurt...I kept on saying I could still feel it. In fact the slight touch I could barely feel was infact someone prodding and pinching my tum with somthing sharp ! There was no pain whatsoever, It was a positive experience. I still can fondly getting the first sight of Kyle, he came out bum first . They dropped the screen in front at my request. It diddnt go down as far as the incision so there was no nasties to see. With my second I was induced....not nice ! Pain was horrendous and constant very quickly. Result emergency section. I would go for a section anytime especially one that is planned For me that was the less risky of the two options in the end. Elaine x

Moprning Kylie, One thing you aren't honey is a failure. You've put yourself totally into making your pregnancy a happy one, everyone gets nervous before an op, and after all thats what a C section is. I hope everything goes OK, look forward to hearing you boasting about how good and gorgeous baby is very soon.. Be good to yourself Magi

Once upon a time there was a child ready to be born. So one day he asked God: They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless? Among the many angels, I chose one for you. She will be waiting for you and will take care of you. But tell me, here in Heaven, I don't do anything else but sing and smile, that's enough for me to be happy. Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you every day. And you will feel your angel's love and be happy. And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me, if I don't know the language that men talk? Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak. And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you? Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray. I've heard that on earth there are bad men. Who will protect me? Your angel will defend you even if it means risking its life. But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore. Your angel will always talk to you about me and will teach you the way for you to come back to me, even though I will always be next to you. At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from earth could already be heard, and the child in a hurry asked softly: Oh God, if I am about to leave now, please tell me my angel's name. Your angel's name is of no importance, you will call your angel: Mommy 'Kylie...How can you possibly think of yourself as a failure' Bev x

Don't beat yourself up sweetie. you've been through such a lot with this pregnancy its enough to try even a saint. All will be fine I am sure. You are NOT a failure Sarah xxx((((HUG))))

Kylie it must have been horrible to have a panic attack like that. You are most deffinitely not a failure! Try and take it easy until Friday and I'm sure your doctor will be able to sort something out. I'll be thinking about you, look after yourself, Helenxx

Failure? How can you be a failure? You have concieved that baby your body has nurtured it You have carried it all this time.. Now you must have Barrel loads of hormones doing cartwheels and well as feeling ready to get on with the next stage of the nurturing process. You are no failure, you are an achiever- its people like me that are a failure in the baby stakes. One way or another the birth will soon be over.. Then joy will abound- hold on to that thought Love Jess

Bev that was lovely. Kylie, Of course you are not a failure, it is just that your hormones are all over the place. Also any op is a bit scary. (I have to have a cyst on my head removed at the end of June, that is a minor op in a doctors surgery, but it still doesn't stop me freaking out if i think about it). I am quite sure all will be well and you will soon have that beautiful baby you have been waiting for. Thinking of you. Ann Glos

If that's failure then we are all guilty. I'd call it normal human behaviour! I'm sure all will go well when the time comes. Good luck and love Jane xx

Oh Kylie, you're not a failure. Giving birth is a scary thing regardless of whether it's a c section or naturally. The only differnece is with a c section you get the option to back out....sometimes! lol I have had 2 emergency c sections and I can tell you there is absolutely nothing to worry about. The atmosphere in the theatre is really laid back and the doctors and nurses are wonderful. They were even taking bets on how much my last baby would weigh because she was premature! lol. Perhaps you could ask your doctor if they could give you something to help you relax before the op. Good Luck Jeanette x

Kylie you are absolutely NOT a failure and you must put such thoughts out of your head right now! Panic attacks are very frightening, but I'm sure your doctor and midwife will do everything they can to help you. I'm looking forward to hearing all about how beautiful your little bundle is. Daisy

thanks all for your kind words i think having to sit there for an extra 3 and half hours before a slot in theatre was avaiable made it worse i was hungry thirsty and going over everything they had said if i have to have a c-section i will ask to be first on the list so i dont bottle it again

Kylie, Don't feel a failure, you did what was right for YOU and your DAUGHTER!! Try and keep smiling babe! Pink xx

Hi Kylie, Please do not feel a failure because you had a panic attack. ((hugs)) I suffer with panic attacks myself, so know how bad they are. You might never have another one. Your little girl will be with you very soon, I hope that she makes her passage very soon without too much distress to you. Jill xx I have sent you an email.

Kylie, stop feeling bad and beating yourself up - you will be fine and I am sure your doctor will help you through this next stage till your little girl arrives. She obviously wasn't meant to be a 'whatever the day where you are was' child. I don't know if you know the verse: Monday's child is fair of face, Tuesday's child is full of grace, Wednesday's child is full of woe, Thursday's child has far to go, Friday's child is loving and giving (that's me folks) and Saturday's child works hard for a living (that's my son) But the child that is born on the Sabbath day, Will be bonny and blithe and good and gay. Pity gay has another meaning these days but I can't think of another word to replace it. Try not to feel too stressed, just get plenty of rest and soon you will be able to say: Today is the tomorrow I worried about yesterday, and all is well. Good luck, can't wait to hear your little girl is with you and her family. Liz

Oh you poor love... will add you to my prayers and wish you and your little one all the best. Anne :)))