General Chat

Yes Liz, it would be wonderful to have a magic wand.Physical pain can be understood-mostly, but mental anguish is only understood by those who suffer too-again, mostly, unless you are extremely fortunate to have a loving partner who always is there for you.
Financial problems on top of everything else? Well, I will get in the queue, but, I find the overwhelming sadness and desolation the worst to bear these last months.I know partly what is causing this,but certainly not all.
Wouldn't it be wonderful to be able to help everyone?

Eileen xx

You are always welcome Eileen, and hope all of us can find light at the end of the tunnel.

Gill, I am like you, financial worries etc are the main problem for me - if I could find myself financially secure and debt free, life would immediately become easier to cope with. Unless I am lucky on the lottery tho, or find a magic wand, I am going to have to sort things out myself somehow.
Also if I could get rid of the fm etc would be better, but I think that might go if I had less stress so the financial thing again grrrrr!

Big hugs to all
Lizxx

Thank you Liz.That is the great thing about this thread, you can unburden yourself without involving your nearest & dearest, can say things you wouldn't dream of uttering. It is a scary place to be, isn't it? I had a wonderful counsellor for just one year.When he told me that he was going private, it didn't really seem to matter, then,a few months later,yes.I was fine up until about april.Trying to keep busy is a good thing, I have always done that, but it doesn't seem to help anymore.
Swirrel, so you too know what I mean.Those migraines can be really debilitating, can't they?
All sorts of problems can make them worse and more frequent, as we all probably know.
Hope you both are able to fight your demons,and come out the other end laughing.Hope that for all of you.

Thank you again for the support.

Eileen xx

skwirrel.
i do feel for you i have had seriouse migrains since having my children some 20 yrs ago, something to do with hormones i think ,i am 45 now and they can get really out of control at times no amount of tablet taking seems to help any-more. i went for a c. t scan results came back and my brain was normal.so now i have started to approach things a little different i have started doing breathing exercises and am starting out at yoga.it is helping as i have'nt had one for two month now.
all best gwen xx

Same here Eileen.....can't explain why I feel like that but I can't seem to make the depression go away.

I am getting a lot of migraines and have a lot of financial problems at the moment so that isn't helping. I must say I am getting sick of taking tablets and fed up seeing useless Dr's.

Anyway, tomorrow is another day.

Take care all

Gill

Hi Eileen, I have been feeling like that for a while now, altho not taking anything except the 5htp (says a lot for that lol) I know from experience that nothing makes any difference to me.
You aren't drivelling on, it is what this thread is all about, depression and anxiety. I try to keep busy to get through the day but is hard. I know I always have difficulty at this time of year and think I know why, hope to get back to the counsellor soon but can't get hold of her to make another apptmt at the mo, my fault, I always ring too late to catch her.
I think a lot of mine is boredom too, boredom with the same old thing and the pressure of having to walk on eggshells and try and keep the peace here.
When you feel down, think of me and wonder what I am doing if you like, anything to occupy your mind. Try and give yourself little treats too when you can.
love
Lizxx

love to everyone struggling and those coping too, brain is a bit fuddled at the mo, have so much going on and trying to deal with one thing at a time, but not easy.
Lizxxx

The weather is lovely, can't complain about that, but, I wish I could get rid of this terrible feeling of desolation, deep, deep sadness.Don't really know where it is coming from, so it is difficult to shift. Feeling like this, tends to colour every day.Am still on 25 mg of Amitriptyline daily,wanted to stop months ago, but am sure now it would have been the wrong thing to do.Trying to appear cheerful for others is not an easy thing to do, it is sooo tiring.
Sorry for drivelling on like this, you all have your own personal demons to fight.

Eileen xx

Hi Ben
Sometimes we need to try to forget about logic and just go with the flow. Try not to get too hung up about things and try to relax a little.
You sound a lot like my friend at college after years of being in the mental health system (and being in my opinion misdiagnosed and mistreated) he has come to the conclusion that he probably has Asperger Syndrome and is now trying to get the proper help he needs.

If you ever want to chat just pm me.

Claire

Well looks like the op for Elaines oh is going ahead.
No news is good news!

Elaine hope you can feel us all sat around you in cyber land. We are real so lots of love coming your way today xxx

Hi

Yes I must try and put these thoughts out of my head. Genealogy is my main interest and I often ruminate and doubt about new and exciting findings.

Even with circumstantial evidence, because I have a logical mind, I always manage to work out the most likely scenario of things.

Ben

OMG what a morning I had. Counselling at nine thirty. I dropped off a repeat prescription at the doc's first, wondered should I go to their loo? No I should be ok! Not far to get to other side of town for counselling appointment. Got there, and decided I will go to the loo now! Sat down no paper!! OMG what can a woman do? I had to tear out pages from my note book and put them in the sanitary disposal bin. I went back to waiting area shaking and on the verge of panic in case I needed to go again, as I now knew there was no paper. Counsellor come for me so I asked her to get someone to put paper in the loo. Once she had done that I relaxed a bit! Had a good chat and I have a clear image of what her plan is. It's just working to achieve it!!

Haven't heard from Elaine so guess they have gone to the hospital. Love to them both!

Gill hope the migraines soon end! xx

Caz my dad gets swollen feet from not walking, and pain in his back. I can imagine how you hurt. Sending you healing thoughts xx

Kathy lovely to see you. xx

Eileen sent you a PM xx

Mary sent you a PM xx

Deanna ~~xx

Liz when is your next counselling ? Hope she has looked into some of those programmes for you.xx

Joyce how is your course on the computer going (the one your dc put you on to) ?xx

Ben you need to change your thought patterns when you feel an obsessive thought let it go. Get on with a job and try to put the thoughts you don't want out of your head xx

Dave ~~~ how's it going?

Can we all send some loving thoughts to Sue xxx

Paula thinking of you xx

Wonder how Gail is getting on

Malc hope you are having a nice time on honeymoon

Caz C thinking of you.xx

Christine xxx

Rach ~~~~xx

Jules ~~~~xx

And those I have temporarily forgot!!! xxxx

Just dropped in to ask if anyone has heard from Elaine yet?

Too many things going on just now, so I can't really spend too much time on here.
BUT...... you are all still in my heart, so look after yourselves.
Did I tell you about Lisa's baby?
It is little boy... just what she wanted.
love to all,
Deanna XXX

Hi all

I have been doing a few mental and physical rituals lately. I have also been seeking reassurance though again.

Ben

I wonder if Elaine's OH has gone in, anybody know?

Hi all

Sorry not to have posted for a while.
Got my baby home from uni so that means more shopping and cooking etc. He is in taking it easy mode today still in his jim jams and it is 3.30 pm !!!!

Elaine I hope things go ahead as it is very unsettling for you both .Fingers crossed xxx

So many of you in pain .I hope you all start to feel better soon xxx

I set myself a goal yesterday .Went into town and thought I would go to the beach .My kitchen mop broke a few weeks ago and I had a fruitless search for a new one .Yesterday how ever I found a replacement so bang on the head went my trip to the beach .Would have looked a right muppet on the beach with a floor mop !!!

Love and hugs to every one and congrats on the new baby

Kathy xxx

Hello everyone,

Sorry for not posting for some time.I do pop in to keep tabs with everyone though, but can't bring myself to say anything.Am afraid that if open Pandora's box, it will always stay open.
Still big black cloud hanging over my head, my eldest daughter's health is worse than ever, but, thanks to one of her daughter's demanding from the rheumatologist that she really listen to what has to be done, my daughter will be back on another anti- TNF medication than she has been on for a long time now.She has had 5 bad bouts of bronchitis in as many months, was put on a special apparatus to help her breathe, terrible not to be able to help her.We hope and trust that the new stuff will bring some relief and a great change in her health soon.
Thanks to Caz & Betty for your kind wishes, and congratulations (again!) to Deanna.A new little life is so precious and joyful.
Hope the test are negative Mary, you already have such a lot on your plate.
For everyone else that I haven't mentioned, take care.

Eileen xx

hii ann the problem today is not in icu its on the pre opp ward were he was over night on sunday till monday this week seems very long and stressful elaine xx

Oh Elaine, you certainly don't need this. I suppose the use of ICU beds is pretty unpredictable and we shouldn't blame the hospital, jus pray that somebody is well enough to move onto the general ward. Thinking lots of positive thoughts that a bed will be available.

Ann
Glos

hi all am still here gettin really worked up at moment ive rang hospital as they asked me to do before hubbys admitance thisafternoon to be told we are to wait for a phone call of them this afternoon somtime as they trying to sort out beds ive got this feeling it will be canciled again twice in one week surley not lets hope they sort it out waiting anx for the call will update when i hear xxelaine

Good luck Elaine hope all goes well for you.

Ann I am finished at college now and cant afford to go back and do more training at the mo. The head has never like me since she found out that i had a caution for possession of cannabis on my record (very long story). I get very little feed back from the placement so far the number of comment written in my student diary is 0. Trying to find a job is scary and dont know if i will be able to find a job in a school or if i will just have to settle for whatever i can find.

As for my sister yes she is an adult but she has a long history of depression and is starting to abuse alcohol on a regular basis. and give that our dad died of liver failure due to alcoholism at age 64 you wouldn't exactly say the portents are good.
I feel very sorry for her son as he is only 12 and he has seen far too much already but i am in no position to accommodate him and im not sure that his dad would want to have him back full time.

I have tried to make my sister ask for help but she wont and there is nothing i can do which is very frustrating