General Chat

hiya malc. good question. i am cooking on gas at the mo, tomoz is another day. peace be with you x

I hate being told 'when you get back to normal' it makes me cringe now as I know I will be on tablets for months. BUT My question is... What is normal??

hiya tracy (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))), its the first time i have mastered the hugs, it must be a signal x

Thanks for your kind words, my sadness will go with time, and I can, and will be able to deal with this. Depression on the other hand, needs outside help, and a lot of help from supporting friends - I hope you all who are in pain at the moment have help from friends and family. I feel for you. x

Thanks Sally You smile but the smile never reaches your eyes & your heart feels like its crying even when you laugh - sorry thats the only way i can describe it. I just want to get back to 'normal' if there is such a thing. The change in the season isn't a help - i've gone from a pretty 'possitive' outlook to crying again in just a couple of weeks. Annoyed with myself really - but i WILL get there! (eventually!) lol You have my sympathy & i hope that doesn't sound condesending - its not meant to be. Tracey -x-

I think I'm like you Sally - I've been down, been sad, but never had true depression (although I was told I had 'reactive depression' at one point). I don;t think that those of us who don't suffer, can truly understand it.

hiya sally. ah love your poor horse. my friend had a horse for 22 yrs, sadly stanley had to be put down. I sent my friend a card saying sorry for your loss of your pet. she rang me to say. she was chocked to think i went to the trouble to send a berevement card for a pet,I said dont be daft you have suffered a personal loss, a big part of your family x

I am lucky pinksaharatracy, I have never been depressed, only sad - it must be really awful to be that down. It has made me think, how many people do you meet in a day who smile, and there is pain there.

When your in its grip Its like running through treacle, you never seem to get free, you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. Hopefully i can now see the light but even now most days are a fight - a fight to keep the tears at bay, to put on a 'normal' front, to get up & go to work. But i am determined not to let it win, but, unfortunatly its not that easy to overcome & i still have days where i know i need to move out of bed/off the settee/ out of the house but i just can't. I'm not and never have been a lazy person but its hard to explain but i'm sure there are many that know what i mean. Robbie has all my respect as its a very hard illness to come to terms with let alone to try & talk about. Anybody in its grip has my sympathy & understanding. Tracey -x-

I have to make a decision shortly about saying goodbye to my horse, who has a degenerative condition. I don't want, or ask for pity. I haven't told my family yet what I am going to do, it just seems easier to sit here and tap it out on the computer. x

The thing about depression, true, clinical depression, is that quite often you would never know that the personw as suffering - they could come across completely 'normal' (for want of a better word). Just goes to show you can never tell whats going on in someone elses mind.

am feeling pretty much that way myself, have felt for years lack of energy, not wanting to do anything, now have days when most things are ok, then i feel really nackered and just really fed up with everything

hiya bec and thank you. its frightening cos once it gets its hooks in you its nitemare, you think will never end, met an old school friend a couple of months back (not seen her for years) she said you have never changed, you are still a bundle of laughs. remember why we voted you as the form captain. cos you would never pull rank on us lol (i t only lasted a couple of weeks teacher realised i was a lost cause).I laughed and said goodbye to my friend, and thought if only you knew. i have to use a crutch(tablets) to make me feel relativly normal, but hey ho tomorrow is another day, for those who answeard my thread . cheers xxx

Glad you appreciate the quotation I posted. Robbie's (2nd) biography is a really good read if you're suffering from depression, he articulates how it affects him with extreme honesty. Love becx

It angers me no end when I hear the phrase 'pull yourself together', which has been said on many an occasion regarding depression. When I hear someone being told that, I feel like getting a sock and stuffing it in their mouth! x

Its really yucky and frightening and you are scared of it coming back. Thats the worst thing.

Been there too girls. Good description. Deanna X

iv got a word for it sh--

Like a huge grey wall blocking your path and surrounded by fog. Even if you can climb it you can't see over it. Then one day, eventually, the fog starts to lift just enough for you to see where you're going. Daisy

I think most of us can empathise with this at one time or another in our lives.